Another lame post. Oh wait....
Hey all my loyal blog-readers (What a nice way to start a post. _Not_.).Hope Life's treating you okay.
I've been thinking a /lot/ about spiritual matters (Go me!) lately, and I've decided that I could be so much more mature than I am. I mean, it's not like I'm at level one, but I'm certinally not anywhere above level two!
I think that a good first step would be to talk with God more. David taught on that a long time ago. He told us about how imortant it was to just get out, shut up, and listen for once.
Well, I've tried that countless times for countless hours. Only one problem, I have /no/ idea of what I'm listening for! One morning I got up at 6:50 (That time should mean something to you people that were in the same cabin as me at Camp) and went out, way down into my woods to sit and listen. I must have sat there for an hour, and guess what I heard! Zip. Zilch. Nada. You get the point.
I got up early at Camp, to sit and read my Bible and things. Guess what I heard, that entire week? I don't think I need to answer that.
What the crud am I supposed to be listening for?????
I've tried it in my spare minutes, too. I ask questions, make statements, and sure I get answers and conversations, but ten to one that's my own brain talking to me. It does that a /lot/.
The question is, even if that /is/ God having a casual convo with me, how am I supposed to tell the difference between my own (oOber imaginative) brain, and God?
I have no answer. I wish I had someone besides my parents to talk to. Some adult who'd understand. I have plenty of them, but I'd be /way/ too shy to go up to, say, Leslie and be all like, "Hi Leslie! Can you tell me how to tell if I'm talking to God or to my mind?" The question hardly makes sense to me, how could I _possibly_ explain it to someone I hardly know (Just because I spent 5 days in a cabin with her doesn't mean I know her well. I don't even know what color her cat is. Sheesh. I do know (Or think I know) what his name is, though, I think it's Mr. Leo. I'm not sure though. Wow, listen to me ramble.)
Passing up my pointless paragraph there (I do seem to have a lot of those), I think you get my point. I need to ask some questions, and I want answers.
posted by Kathryn at
12/18/2005 11:23:00 PM
6 comment(s):
The difference between ur thots and His? ur brain work and His? easy.
1. u need His information. u need His thots. u need read His W _ _ _.
2. after number 1 is the time to sit and listen, and chew. must have both.
jump to number two all the time and get more of what u already have. proof: Isa 55:6-9
meditate (which is what u describe in your blog) requires something to chew on besides ur own thots.
awesome questions, madd. ur brave.
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Anonymous, at
8:39 AM
"Chunky Beef Stew." Alex, 2004. Hmm.
You still seem deep, but it /really/ bothers me that you use chatspeak. Obviously not an adult. Trying to think who I sent the link to that uses chatspeak and is deep. Hmmm.
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Kathryn, at
3:36 PM
don't sweat it. some ppl stumble on these blogs. hope u dn miss the point.
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Anonymous, at
6:09 PM
never heard of phishing?
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Anonymous, at
6:10 PM
"phishing"??
No. I haven't.
And I know...and I won't. Thanks for the refrence and stuff.
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Kathryn, at
8:42 PM
in the old testament God actually had conversations directly to people, like moses. not that frequent these days though. dont get me wrong, Gog still talks to people, everyday, just in a different way. sometimes when i open up the bible im just skimming to be like, ok God give me something great. it's not like that though. i just need to pray sometimes and read something, then whammie! its God in your face! not everytime. i do agree though, you need someone to talk to. i asked my sisters once if they had read anything good lately and they gave me a bunch of great stuff. just because a quite time is between you and God doesnt mean you cant share what you learn. ask someone, maybe try reading inspirational books, sometimes it just takes faith to know he's there but dont give up. find someone you can talk to.
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Anonymous, at
2:27 PM
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