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Thursday, August 31, 2006

So anyway...

My life's not bad. I'm working on a fleece blanket for Leslie and Jonathan's baby, Kaela. I also am trying to make a matching pillow, but I feel too clumsy to work on a blind stitch atm (for all you that aren't sewing savvy, it's a straight-across stitch that's almost invisible if you use the right thread and do it right), and make it 'blind' anyway.
If you want a theological lesson from that, I could say that the sewing machine will never mess up the stitch as long as I leave it alone. The only reason the straight line of stitches would dip down it if I were to move the cloth. It's something I had to learn the hard way. I messed up a lot of patches of that blanket by trying to manipulate the fabric too much. Now I just sit back, press the foot petal, and let the machine do all the work.
Hm.
Food for thought. Or more like small snack for thought. But it's better than nothing.

Yesterday was really good. Leslie and Kathy took me into Leslie's office and talked to me for a while, the subject being obvious. I didn't have the heart to tell her that one of the many reasons I started was because I thought she didn't care about me. I might should've. Anyway, I came out feeling better, if more confused. Everything in me is screaming at me not to trust them, that they're only telling me I can out of obligation, that they say the same things to everyone. Everything that I have learned to be is laughing at me, mocking me for even considering that they might not be lying to me, telling me that everything they've ever told me is only to laugh at me behind my back.
Leslie told me that they'd noticed a change. That I'd been more withdrawn, that I'd been closing up and hiding inside myself.
I didn't know anyone was so insightful.

Cheers, I don't know what to think anymore.

<3-madd

15 comment(s):

Katy, seriously, LISTEN TO ADULTS!!!!!
They have had a longer life experience then you have and they can help you with the struggles you are going through!
AND FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! GO TO YOUR PARENTS FOR HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That is why God put them in your life! I can not tell you enough how important it is that you talk to your parents when you are struggling!!!!!!!
Trust me....it is easier to get a lecture from your parents then to have God wack you over the head with a two by four!!!! Trust me! If you keep everything hidden from everyone you are basically destroying yourself! I could quote scripture and tell you the importance of your parents till I am blue in the face and my fingers fall off, but please!!!! Before you destroy yourself!!!! GO TALK TO YOUR PARENTS AND OTHER ADULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

By Webmaster, at 3:42 AM

Hey, you know that's not the case with me.

Sometimes, it may seem like that, but even advice given from a less-than-sincere person (although I think these adults are sincere) can be helpful. Look at it this way -- God's not going to part the heavens and say "KATY! LISTEN UP!" He uses people in your life to speak to you (outside of the Bible, of course). He did that with me. Ask Jer (who needs to settle down).

And remember, you can call me at any time -- even if it's some weird hour like 3 am.

BTW, your sewing exploits are admirable. I do well to sew buttons. Knitting? I see knitting needles better used as weapons (which is probably why their banned on airplanes). Crotcheting? What the heck do you do with that hook-thing? Pick your nose? Cross-stitch? Let's not go there.

By Carey, at 5:32 PM

I know and can Crotcheting, but I forgot how to knit. And Katy, next time I come to your state, I'll give you a heads up.

By ~*Joyzey*~, at 6:29 PM

Holy cow!! Dear, listen to me! They LOVE YOU! I know! I talked to Leslie! She loves you so much!! It may not seem like they care, but they do! I love you too! Please don't shy away. Give them a chance. I love you chick!

By untamed, at 9:32 PM

Oh, Carey. You need a crash-course in knitting etc. It just so happens that I can do all of those you listed, please don't be hatin'.
xD Thanks for the advice. Unfortunately /some/body needs to whack me upside the head with a 2x4m even if it's not God.

By Kathryn, at 8:35 AM

Srsly? /whee Sweet, Joy. You can have my bed. :D

And thanks, Steph. I'm sorry. I try, I really do. I can't help shying away anymore.

By Kathryn, at 8:36 AM

I'd be willing to give it a go if you teach me, Katy.

By Carey, at 12:54 PM

Okay. Step one: attain needle.

By Kathryn, at 2:42 PM

Get the knitting needle with a head Carey. The ones my grandma gave me don't have heads, so everything just likes to fall off the back!

By ~*Joyzey*~, at 5:39 PM

Tighten the stitches, lovey.

By Kathryn, at 7:15 PM

yeah, I just totally forgot how. So it doesn't mater now. But Crotcheting, I still know how to do that am pretty ok in it.