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Hey loves. Sorry it's been so long. I feel bad for not posting. xPHow is everyone? I hope you're feeling okay.
I got depressed Thursday night. I cut again. Seven times. I feel terrible, but it really helped for a while. Only for a while though.
Mum and Dad and I watched Napoleon Dynamite tonight. It was nice. 8)
Jesse graduated, finally. Awww. He looked so sweet in his gown.
And as for Lightbulb (post below), I saw him today. I ignored him completely. We sang Inside Out, and it kind of felt like I was giving him up to love God "from the inside out". I know I can't serve two gods. I still love Lightbulb, but as more of a leader-child type of love. It might take time, but I'm ready to start down that road, finally. I think. Oh God, I hope.
I love you all. Praying for you much.
<3-madd
posted by Kathryn at
5/28/2006 11:35:00 PM
13 comment(s):
Katy,
Please talk to someone about that.
I know I'm not in a position to help,
GBecasue of my location gender and age,
But you need to talk to someone.
Just talking to someone helps enormously.
I've had problems in my life before and talking with someon always helps.
Please.
By
TheEarthCanBeMoved, at
1:20 PM
Jason's right, sweetie. Please do feel free to talk to me. I know I don't sound like I'd understand, but you'd be surprised. I didn't escape from self-hate and self-abuse unscathed.
Will continue to pray for you.
By
Carey, at
7:30 PM
Jason,
Your location makes no differnece. You've had as much impact on me as anyone that livs next-door.
I'll try, Carey. I always cut so late at night though. I don't want to wake you, I know you have work and things you have to get up for.
By
Kathryn, at
12:41 AM
Don't you worry about waking any one.
If you trust them during the day,
That person will be more than willing to listen at night.
No matter what the cost.
By
TheEarthCanBeMoved, at
3:06 AM
Jason is right! Who cares what time it is when you call! I am usually up anywhere between 1-3 AM! Carey is usually up until 11 PM or so! Jason is up anywhere between 1-2 AM...aren't you Jason? However, PLEASE call Carey if you are thinking about cutting yourself! Something else that you might want to try. Try listening to Nicole Nordeman, Casting Crowns, or Barlow Girl! They are VERY inspirational and encouraging!
By
Webmaster, at
8:52 AM
Seriously, sweetie, call me - no matter what time it is. You can wake me up, I don't mind at all. Just call me whenever you feel like cutting yourself -- even if it's three times a day or in the middle of the night!
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Carey, at
9:38 AM
Katy, just remember I am NEVER too busy for you!
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Carey, at
9:41 AM
You need serious help. And blogging about it to your internet friends and your praying clearly isn't helping. you should seriously talk to a counselor at your school, or a pastor at your church. if you don't want to talk to your parents, there are other options.
you are putting permanant scars on your body. for what?
By
Anonymous, at
10:14 AM
KATY! How many times have I told you that I 1. leave my phone on all night, and 2. am up just as late as you every night. Katy, please talk to me about this. If not me, Jenna, or Leah, you know all three of are up late every night! And don't forget Ashely! We love you so much!
S<><
By
untamed, at
8:38 PM
Anonymous, be nice.
Katy, I would recommend that you go for counselling. I did and it really helped. Wish I lived closer.
By
Carey, at
9:12 PM
look - i've known people who do this. its not about being nice - its about telling her what the result of her actions will be. talk to a counselor or pastor or someone. otherwise you'll battle this on your own, and hurt yourself emotionally and physically.
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Anonymous, at
8:32 AM
I know, I know, but you were sounding a little harsh. Yeah, some situations require harshness, but not this one. It may also just be me, because I prefer to approach things with gentleness (mixed with firmness). Katy's got a big support group of friends, but I will agree that it would be a good idea to talk to her parents or a counsellor. It's really hard - especially talking to your parents, but it's worth it in the end, even though their reaction might not be what you'd want. But your parents love you and are there for you. Let them know you need help. I talked to my mom, Katy, and then went for counselling. In a multitude of counsel there is wisdom. Make it a habit of asking the advice of older adults -- it will serve you well.
By
Carey, at
7:43 AM
Carey is right! Try hanging out with adults and talking to them about it. 90% of my friends are 19 and older.
By
Webmaster, at
11:32 PM
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